FULL MOON IN CANCER - CRY BABY CRY!!

It’s the FULL MOON in Cancer!! So what does that mean for me? And what does that mean for YOU? For me...Cancer is in my 10th house, the Midheaven and it is the house of career, public standing, reputation, etc. What is my calling, my life’s purpose? This is a hard core 10th house question. A question that many ask at key points in their lives. It is the house in which you are judged by society. The 10th describes how society measures your life. Are you a hero? Or a bum. And a lot of pressure can come with this house. "The 10th shows how others see us-especially those who don't know us too well. It suggests our reputation among acquaintances, bosses and coworkers, our mother's book club, distant relatives, strangers too. We don't care enough about these people to get to know them better. Yet if their opinion of us is poor, it will bother us greatly. We care about our public image. And it's nice to have an impressive 10th house calling card", says fellow astrologer Dana Gerhardt.

What do I want the world to see me as versus how do they really see me as? This is all opposite my 4th house where my Sun in Capricorn lies. Today an opposition is occurring and those two houses are aligned and able to work together if I allow them to. So I hereby command that they do. I am in alignment already. As I type away on my computer at home (4th house), next to me lies a list of tasks that are career and public related (10th house) and the phone is ringing one after the other as the public reaches me either in relation to this full moon or my work on this planet. Today I confirmed a television interview with Voice of America the first week in February. This is my second appearance on "Healthy Living", the first one was two years ago when they so wonderfully featured me on a Yoga segment. I am aligned with what I FEEL I am here to do.

With Sun in the 4th house opposite my house of career (the 10th) I struggle with this opposition sometimes. I value my time alone, my space and my private life, yet no matter how much I try to stay out of the spotlight, it seems to always find me. As I read Dana Gerdhart's interpretation of the 10th house, I also came across the Neptune talk and wonder what my psyche is begging me to do or change that I cannot quite understand or hear because of Neptune's pink smoke. I have Neptune in the 2nd house of money, possessions, personal resources. Disillusions, misunderstanding, deception, confusion, all of which I have experienced around this house. I am freeing myself of the suffocation from the pink smoke about money and not understanding the spiritual meaning and mastering it as of yet. But back to the 10th house - though they are tied in. After all, I have to get paid for my work in my career house, right? They are connected.

Last night, memories slowly arose as I watched the movie Colored Girls, which came as a surprise given the cover of the promotional copy read Color Day instead. LOL!! I declared that I wouldn’t watch that movie nor go out of my way but it landed in my home and on my visual screen. At first I found it to be so so negative. I get more and more mad with each character that was introduced. I kept asking what was Tyler Perry and Oprah's (I think) point? What do they gain and how do they nurture and feed the minds and hearts of the viewers? Is that why people are hating on Tyler Perry? It was a bundle of all the horrible ways in which the Black woman lives and quite demeaning too. So why keep feeding the dark side of our journey? That movie evoked a lot of feelings in me. It took me back to childhood and the yearning for intimate, nurturing moments with other women. I had that when I was a young girl growing up. I had a lot of women around me and there was a natural loving bond between all of us, except mommie dearest.

So what is the meaning of all that and what did this movie come to teach me? Relationships, the ins and outs, the struggle that have defined a Black woman, the challenges of living with high self-esteem and avoiding self-abuse in a divided society that fears the power of the Black woman. What I found prevalent in this movie was the MOTHERING principle! Every character touched me in a way that made me wonder why?? And in each of them I found a link to their own Mother which paved the way to who they had become. I found it to be a dark and negative movie in the sense that it brought out the worst in the Black woman’s spirit and was also an indication that we have not learned the lessons of our past as African people. The highlight for me was in the end, when they triumphed in coming together in support of one another. And that’s the part that I loved and valued. It also that made me feel a void in me, that made me yearn for my mother to hold my head against her body and rock it against her bosom as she strokes my face gently. But she can't because in my world she is dead. Yet it would be so healing to give a hug to another woman as I would be so happy to receive it in return. This is called emotional nurturance and bonding.

So its no doubt this movie was a Cancer FULL MOON experience for me. Cancer is the mothering sign, the one that is so nurturing, caring and protective. Through the tears I cried, a poem came out of me and I share it with you.....



WHERE IS MY HEART!!

Where is my heart?
I can’t seem to find it
Who took my heart?
And where did they hide it?

Sometimes I place my hand on my left breast
To give it a quick test
It seems so far away
So deep deep inside that
the music seems like a flat note
that can’t seem to find its sounding way

Then a tree reached down
And embraced me with its arms
Its leaves brushing my face wiping off my frown
What happened to my heart?
I can’t find its sound!

A butterfly sat on my shoulder
And it began to sing me a song
There were no lyrics only vibrations and subtle ripples
That fluttered like wings in my heart
The butterfly was opening the wings to my heart

Where is my Heart?
I can’t seem to find it
Who took my heart?
And where did they hide it?

Am I awake or am I asleep
I get confused about both worlds
With my eyes half closed I peep
In between and through the blinds of wake and sleep

Where is my Heart?
I can’t seem to find it
Who took my heart?
And where did they hide it?

I just don’t recall who rooted it
Or how many hands have snatched it
I don’t recall who put it in their boots and walked away
But today I reclaim it!



It's a BUZZING FULL MOON in CANCER!! And here's my TIP to YOU: DRINK PLENTY OF WATER SO THAT YOUR EMOTIONS CAN FLOW EASILY AND EFFORTLESSLY! FEELING DEEPLY? No matter what you're FEELING it's a good time to just CRY and allow the WATERS OF your TEARS to CLEANSE & HEAL YOU! ♥ ♥ ♥