My Creative RAW FOOD DETOX Conclusion

My Detox ended after Day 6. I let go at day 6 thinking well, 6 is my life path number and since in 2 days I turn 46, it would be healthy and wise to allow those 2 days to slowly resume eating food. I knew it would be difficult to detox on my birthday since food is always such a big part of celebrations. My stomach and body was readjusting to a new way of being and a complete U turn would upset it.

Perhaps you've noticed that the order of my detox journey did not continue as it originally started with me logging accounts of each day. That is because on Day 5 my entire life changed. It would not be the same nor would my life continue being what it was in any shape, pattern or routine. It coincided with the changes that my body had undergone and now they were manifesting in my physical world. The choice between getting out of bed or staying in it and choosing to get out can take you in unchartered territories. That morning, I chose with hesitance and throat that was beginning to feel a bit scratchy to go snow tubbing along with my son in Western Maryland at 6:30am. It was Saturday and Day 5 of my detox. Later that night, I returned home with a puppy under my arm and the anticipation of a new tenant that would be moving downstairs on Sunday.

I did not get on the slope that day, I didn't feel strong enough to be in that physical spirit without food in 'me bellie' and very little sleep. I was exhausted physically but very mentally stimulated and emotionally excited. It was a great day and I had a wonderful experience although I stayed inside and read. I had on second thought encouraged my son to go and had no intentions of going upon falling asleep the night before. I didn't think it would be wise to overexert myself during a fast although I felt energized in a whole new way. Pushing it would not be a good thing, I thought at the moment. Overall, we were all glad that we all made it to the mountains that perfectly snowy day.

I spent the entire week, my birthday included, adjusting to two new beings arriving in my life. I was up and down, in and out, busy. Amazingly, the cord for my apple laptop got broken so I has unable to use it. My other HP laptop is the slowest thing, so my access to the internet was very limited. And it all turned out to be a blessing in disguise. It was an unexpected disruption that allowed me moments to purge of the excess energy from the computer and online interactions. It also gave my eyes a break from the screen. I was definitely more in touch with and aware of nature and the connectedness that needs nurturing and harnessing. If not, we loose parts of our soul being and we become incomplete and starved for nourishment of all kinds.

This was one of the most intense detox I've had. The physiological aspect was easy. My body accepted and integrated with the shift with ease. I did not experience the painful hunger pangs that comes from your stomach's first shock of not getting food as it begins to break down the ones that are already stuck in your colon. I did better in the preparation phase than other times.

I still dream of and long to travel to a raw food detox center or retreat and do an in depth detox and raw food training where I can be supported and around others that are undergoing same. I can also focus more on caring for myself and on the internal changes and channel my energy as opposed to trying to carry on the day to day to day duties and roles. It's powerful when you step away from and outside your usual environment to detox. You can more easily see things and experience it all from a new perspective, allowing you to see you and your life from an entirely new angle and place.

I am so grateful! As I look around me, do inventory of my needs, count my internal and external resources, I see that I am blessed and highly favored. I have a wonderful, loving and smart son of a kid who happens to be my greatest creative project. And YEP! I am a kid still, deep inside. As I become more and more aware of that child in me, I see this person that wants to play, that wants to enjoy, to let go but has never quite mastered it. So many reminders around her to be okay with it all, with the restrictions, the boundaries, the limitations, the no's. Now I give myself permission to lift those restrictions, break those boundaries, exceed those limitations at times and in ways they each need to be while saying YES to life!!

Ever seen the movie 127 Hours? I believe that young man survived being trapped by a rock in the Grand Canyon as a result of his attitude towards life even while he watched and timed his own death. He drew on his creativity which in turn zoomed him into nature's patterns and rhythm as they were expressed around him. His will to live took flight and he kept on breathing and moving even after being forced to cut off his right arm and finding his way out of ups and downs of the rocks of a maze with two legs and one arm. And he refused to stop until her returned to his loved ones. This character moved and inspired me.


This raw food liquid detox put me so much more in touch with my body and the mindfulness of its movements, its calls through pleasurable and painful sensations; the language of my womb and heart. What makes this experience even more heightened is the lack of food in my center and the spaciousness that holds power. My container feeling less empty, less heavy and bogged down. The connection between moods and foods became apparent. Feeling everything so acutely and savoring the tastes of the raw fruits and vegetables in their liquid form. I began to sit with the thought that everything revolves around food in our existence on this planet. I was challenged to come up with other ways to socialize and to interact without saying let's do dinner, let's have lunch, or stop by for breakfast. At least I can speak for my world. My own world, I faced and saw revolved around food. I began to feel disgust and hate for food. For a few moments I was angry at how it's destroyed many lives, deteriorated many bodies, confused minds and poisoned hearts. I saw how my relationship with foods is like my relationship with humans especially men. If it looked good and tasted good then I wanted it over and over. Often omitting the part in which I factor in whether or not it's actually good for me.

Here we were raising a dog again. Its been almost two 2 years ago since we lost our last dog - Nzinga. We are ready in many ways to allow the joy and the disciplinary challenges that comes with a dog and this goes for both - the dog and us. Since I have been off track with being disciplined and organized, I am focusing on the pluses of having a dog. His presence in our lives certainly helps balance the yin and yang/the masculine and the feminine in me, in us. And right now I sure need to crank up the yang in me. LOL! Not sure where we'll be by the end of 2011 but we are practicing living in the moment.

During the course of my fast, I juiced carrots everyday and mixed it with apples, pears and celery. I also added a bulb or two of garlic and sprinkled in cinnamon. I did raw pineapple juicing as well and drank plenty of water with fresh lemon squeezed and continued the herbal teas. On a couple of occasions I spiced up my carrot juice mix with a pinch of cayenne pepper. I really enjoyed that and it gave me a since of having a full meal.

My sexual energies were active and higher than usual. I was more aware of the energetic intensity in my root chakra area because there was no food present to get in the way. I did wake up feeling congestion and some pain in that area most mornings. It would be relieved by large quantities of water - 3 or more glasses. Then I referenced the book, "Your Body's Many Cries for Water" and was reminded that the disk in the root of the spin holds up all the organs thus it requires sufficient water to stay lubricated and watered to be able to naturally support the weight it carries. I realized I needed to drink more water than I was taking in. My sexual meditation and creative visualizations were powerful. I practiced the micro cosmic orbit in a modified way adding dimensions that suits my own personal needs.


During the last week, I burned a green candle on my altar and have been more heart-centered. I have been practicing gentle and heart breathing techniques that quickens the relaxation and grounding process. During this process, I am extremely gentle and soft with my self. With gentle ease I draw air into my nostrils allowing them to expand a bit wider, filling my throat completely and stroking my heart with its gentle breeze. With eyes, tongue and face softened, I shift deeper into my physical home.

I personally am very closely connected with my body. We have a very long intimate relationship. Many of its signals and disharmonious moments require water as a result of dehydration in that area. However, it doesn't end there for I am fully aware that the dehydration itself has deeper roots and is a coding of some emotional message. I naturally aim to decode the message so that I can make the correction necessary. I often see that being dehydrated is my way of unconsciously avoiding the emotions around what ever issue is at hand. For example, during the break up of my lover, I found it rather difficult to drink lots of water. I would forget to drink like I would normally do. It surprised me every time I realized that I hours had gone by and I had not hydrated. The thing is, water activates and moves feelings, emotions, the deep unconscious underworld, our psychic abilities, the powers of our womb. Depending on where one is in the scheme of living or the design of the matrix will determine how far down or away they will successfully store those emotions. It is pushed it aside for fear of reliving it and/or upsetting the status quo of "keeping it together". Stepping outside of that will immediately call to the attention of the those who monitor us and dictate normalcy and acceptable behavior. So we stuff them down because we learned no other way of coping. My body communicates to me and I have been learning its language for a long time. I know the difficulty of reading one's own emotional pulses in a world that does not educate on nor practically honor its place in the human spectrum.

On this past Thursday, I did a colon hydrotherapy session. It is basically a colonics administered by a professional. I did the closed one in which the practitioner sits with you through out the process and intermittently massages your abdominal region. The session begins with a heated castor oil pack placed on your abdomen. In the words of the therapist, "You had a very productive session!" I was appalled by the amount of waste that came out of my body even after 6 days of the raw food liquid detox. Up until day 4 of my detox I was having a daily full morning bowel movement each morning. I was surprised at how much was coming out even though I was not eating. So releasing even more during the colon therapy session was mind blowing. I felt so so good after. I was light as an 'Angel'! I return for two more consecutive sessions and I give thanks
for all that I learned about myself, the body and its relationship to all that is.


The truth is if we want to live in the spirit of wholeness and balance then detoxing on a regular basis is imperative to keeping our body, mind and hearts alive. The medical establishment does not advocate nor encourage detoxing or cleansing the body on a regular basis. This is sad. Those who practice and consume natural medicine know the value of regular cleansing and detoxification of all the internal organs, the blood and the brain. And in order to find and experience deep inner peace we need to be mindful that it exists deep within ourselves. Inner peace is lost when one keeps stacking up and piling up the inner world and the body. This only drowns and suffocates the peace. Food that is not real, authentic and not in harmony with nature will disturb and disrupt the peace within. So as we make daily choices of the food we eat, let us ask ourselves, "Has it and will it HEAL or HARM?"

Remember that PEACE BEGINS ON THE PLATE!